[me, muse] Life Update and Explorations

[jrising]

The busy of life rushes and ebbs. Right now the tide's been low for a week, and I'm still working on a depression time diet, and expecting necessity to find the balance of work and play. Anyone want to find some adventure? Also, anyone want to help me with graphic design for a cool website project that ought to make money later on?

Mmmm, *wonderful* party Saturday night (and much of Sunday). It was great seeing anastasia1 and a_c_i_d. I felt horrible for a_c_i_d, who tried in a dozen ways to express the party's id, and the party would have none of it (girlygothic was particularly relentless). I also had a good time hosting the Rocky party last week, and I’ll do it again in a couple months.

The rest of this post deals in drugs (I know I have family members around, and they're welcome to stay onboard, but I wanted to give fair warning). I could sing books-worth of praise for the many fine experiences, perspectives, and understandings that I've found through drugs. And I'd happily post pieces of that praise if anyone wants, but I have more current topics.

About two weeks ago, I got some mushrooms from a friend, and had a great trip filled with anthropological thinks, about American culture's use of drugs and the mechanics of "drug exploration", and how we live compared to how we think we live.

I took the mushrooms at an independent living group of MIT's in Boston with a long history of drugs, engineering, and craziness. The first room I was in had a built-in music-synced lights show and couches hanging on chains. I ended up sleeping on a room-sized suspended fishing net with internet-controlled lighting and a tradition of nudity. Claudia might live there next semester for free, at the top of a musical staircase filled with glowing murals, in a room that opens onto the roof.

And my apartment's walls are still white. In our world, anything is possible given the right connection (or the wrong connection and the right price). So why do our huts look like Mr. Potatohead, with a mass-produced home life of interchangeable parts, cluttered by the debris of our consumerism? Money obscures the possibilities of life: it is the great hammer with which everything looks like a nail, setting the cost of life just beyond our capacity, at a time when the possibilities of people-in-connection are unfathomably great.

I recently acquired a pill of MDA, which is sort of a cross between ecstasy, speed, and a psychedelic. Where you feel the connections between yourself and others on ecstasy, you sense them and ideate on them with MDA. I'm really looking forward to trying it. But it's a social drug, so I think I want to take it at a Rocky party. I've never tried MDA or MDMA (ecstacy) before, and I don't know how I'll react, and I don't know if it's fair to exercise that uncertainty around people some of whom wouldn't know or understand.

Comments

[girlygothic.livejournal.com]

Pssst... I don't think girlygoth was teasing a_c_i_d, as she lives in England.

[revolos55.livejournal.com]

Maybe it was a trans-Atlantic mocking.

[jrising.livejournal.com]

I even checked that beforehand, thinking you maybe spelled it some other way, and totally didn't notice the ending. *sigh* Thanks, fixed now.

[jdub0014.livejournal.com]

my experience with MDMA was the most intense and enjoyable i've ever had with a drug. i always preferred the downers to the uppers. i think the speed in the MDA would freak me out... but based on my experiences with MDMA it's hard to freak out because you just feel so damn good.

[jdub0014.livejournal.com]

*i always preferred the downers to the uppers in terms of MDMA, is what i meant.

though it applies in general, too.

[girlygothic.livejournal.com]

No biggie. I just try to draw people's attention to that little detail when I can, as there is that other person out there. (If it were an unused LJ name I wouldn't sweat it.)

[jrising.livejournal.com]

Speed doesn't do much to me, and I've heard in MDA it mostly just makes you talkative (well, unless you're raving). I don't think I've ever heard of someone who hasn't loved MDMA, so I'm psyched. Did you take it at a party or with just a friend, or do you think it matters?

By the way, I love your photos from Paris! I want to reply to some, but for time and things I think I should be doing.

[jdub0014.livejournal.com]

i always preferred to take drugs in a quiet, comfortable atmosphere. if you have used drugs in party environments before and were ok with it then i definitely think MDMA would be doable/probably lots of fun at a Rocky party... especially if sexual games break out! when i was still able to do drugs, i would have definitely preferred doing MDMA at a party than something like mushrooms, if that helps.

i'm glad you're enjoying the pictures!