Mysteries of the Universe
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jrisingMy book for this week is The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test, and I'm totally freaking over it.
Last night it revealed to me a chunk of the mysteries of the life, concerning the radical oneness of the universe. I wrote it up for all to see: PDF. Then I looked at the time and realized that I'd been zoning for six hours and should go to sleep. My big thought now is, "If I can get this much of a trip off reading about LSD, I wonder how far I can go from actually taking it!"
Disclaimers:
I'm currently freaking on Tom Wolfe, so this may be incomprehensible.
Much of the structure of this has a lot to do with the particular internal conflicts that I have encountered, and may not be applicable to others.
The connections shown are only the first level: the very fabric of the page is formed by an infinite network of connections, so that each concept is just around a corner from every other.
In other news, I got back my HD data! For $400 at Nationwide Data Recovery ("Where we don't treat your data like a high priced commodity"), which is half of what I saw elsewhere. The guy there started cussing about his network while I was on the phone with him, but he didn't flinch at sending me my gigabytes of music-collection.
This week is spring break for Olin and MIT. C. went to Florida, so I've been working almost non-stop (and reading Wolfe). I was bored for the first could of days, without C. around, but since then it's been absolute bliss. I can't wait until I'm Financially Independent so I can do this all the time.
Last night it revealed to me a chunk of the mysteries of the life, concerning the radical oneness of the universe. I wrote it up for all to see: PDF. Then I looked at the time and realized that I'd been zoning for six hours and should go to sleep. My big thought now is, "If I can get this much of a trip off reading about LSD, I wonder how far I can go from actually taking it!"
Disclaimers:
I'm currently freaking on Tom Wolfe, so this may be incomprehensible.
Much of the structure of this has a lot to do with the particular internal conflicts that I have encountered, and may not be applicable to others.
The connections shown are only the first level: the very fabric of the page is formed by an infinite network of connections, so that each concept is just around a corner from every other.
In other news, I got back my HD data! For $400 at Nationwide Data Recovery ("Where we don't treat your data like a high priced commodity"), which is half of what I saw elsewhere. The guy there started cussing about his network while I was on the phone with him, but he didn't flinch at sending me my gigabytes of music-collection.
This week is spring break for Olin and MIT. C. went to Florida, so I've been working almost non-stop (and reading Wolfe). I was bored for the first could of days, without C. around, but since then it's been absolute bliss. I can't wait until I'm Financially Independent so I can do this all the time.
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Date: 2005-03-25 06:11 am (UTC)> By "Deprecated", do you mean in general/absolute or for you personally in comparison to where they currently are in your life?
In general, by deprecated I meant:
I mean the comparison between the full life and the surrounding deprecated parts to be a sort of limited-universality. Within my universe, it's clearly that way (whether I can achieve the full life or not). But I was thinking of that when I disclaimed that it might not be for everyone, simply by virtue of the sorts of things that I worry about. For example, I'm not the least concerned about N-S axis disfunctionalities, because I'm currently a lost cause, being an N so far down. But I can imagine that someone who is concerned with those would draw a different picture.
> I'm currently on a "pro-negative-emotions" kick.
Are you sure you're pro- the particular kind of negative emotions I'm nay-saying? Anger and a kind of fear are natural and a necessary part of the here and now. I'm specifically bemoaning the negative emotions that result from a negative valuation of self-worth. I don't fully grok the goth romance with the negative, but I thought it was associated with death and grief, which I do somewhat understand the worth of dwelling on. But they're different.
> So, how much of what's on that schematic is in The Electric Kool-Aid Acid Test itself?
EK-AAT created a kind of crystallization, around Oneness and how to live and religion. When I started, it seemed like the whole came from it, but as I tried to say what relations it had crystallized, it became very clear that things went far beyond the book. I could probably give you a list of the elements that the book directly touched-- it would probably include about 1/3 of the items, mostly on the left side-- but I don't think it would mean much.
> Also, did you read Be Here Now by Ram Das?
I have read Be Here Now, and freaked on it too! At the time, it clearly went deeper than I could grasp, though I got some things from it. But the very things I got from it are the ones being built stronger and further with EK-AAT. I suspect that means that when I go back to Be Here Now after I'm done with this, I'll be able to get at a deeper layer.